As much as some find it purposeful, my writing is my remedy and I hope you’ll allow me to continue to use this platform to express myself as necessary and bear with me whilst I go through this weird phase.
A friend of mine would often say “Wow, the year of realisations” in response to anything (usually funny stuff) that takes her by surprise. I have a similar use for that phrase except the surprises are a bit more painful than funny.
I have recently had to question and re-evaluate some of the friendships that I have and it hurts to know that perception isn’t always reality.
The realisation that the esteem I held people in isn’t mutual is a hard pill to swallow. What concerns me more is having to look at myself and ask how did I get it so wrong? Why did I give of myself in a way that would yield such little return or regard?
I share this purely to show that irrespective of who anyone is, everyone deals with similar things.
How will I go forward with this new ‘enlightenment?’ Time and wise counsel from God. The one thing I do not want to do is harden my heart and become bitter, because let’s be real that will do more damage to me than it’ll ever do to them.
Relationships of any kind are hard work and require consistent reciprocal effort, compromise and compassion. If these are missing then it’s time to release the noose from around your neck and free yourself.
You cannot be of service from an empty space, you have to be full and part of that comes through your relationships with others.
Remember this, if there’s no love in it, leave it.
…In other news this is how I’m trying to be for the rest of the week:
P.s I’ll be back to normal asap.